(Condensed version of my most recent ‘Inner Process’ post)
I am now living in a place surrounded by the most beautiful nature. The sun is coming out more and more. Life and strength and love are all budding and blooming inside of me. When I am alone, outside, in beautiful nature, I know I am exactly where I am meant to be, doing exactly what I should be doing, i.e. nothing much. I am connecting to the bedrock of love that makes up this universe, this world, all life, everything and ourselves.
I have not always known the entire world to be love – especially when confined and trapped in the city, not enjoying life. I have craved for love in the form of a companion.
Now I find love everywhere. The craving is dissipating as well as expectations and fantasises and thoughts of the future at all. Thoughts of the future, even just of the future in moments to come, bring me anxiety. Thoughts of the future bring away from this moment and hence, disconnect me from life.
I can hug trees and rocks, speak to cows and cats, walk barefoot in grass and sand, swim in the sea, admire flowers and spiderwebs… all of these things are bringing me back to Me. I feel love in all of these things and more. By connecting to the love which makes up these things, I am connecting to the love which makes up Me.
I am deepening into this knowing every day. I recognise that it can be easy to forget. It takes continual going back and experiencing it. Merely thinking about trees is not enough. You’ve gotta go out into the world every day and say hello.
In regards relationships, connect with your own sense of abundance before you can offer abundance to another. It is not fun to love someone who doesn’t love themselves. So why would you put any person you claim to love, in that position? Feel the abundance of love flowing through you and you will live a much richer life… whether or not you have a partner.
So the rocks and sea and grass and cows and cats and flowers etc. etc. are teaching me how to love? Yes. They are also teaching me how to live. These things don’t have grand expectations for themselves or others.
They just are.
Perfection.
They only are in this moment.
Watch a flock of birds fly in formation over the sea. They are not thinking or planning or talking with each other extensively to create these complex formations. They just do it. Life can be perfect when it is completely spontaneous.
So if love ever does come knocking on my door, you won’t find me thinking about turning on the kettle or fretting about whether to offer my guest a cuppa tae or a glass of wine. Instead I will walk towards that knocking door, not a future thought in mind.
I will open that door and simply flow with what is.
I have to keep reminding myself that everything comes back to this moment. To the breath. To life. To presence. To tao. To godliness. This moment is sacred. This moment holds all the love and power you need. Letting go of the future is true freedom.
It takes some reminding sometimes.
Hannah Fitzpatrick Creative 